It's true, I ate things I shouldn't have but I didn't do it out of 'ravaged hunger', I ensured I had a nice glass or two or Brandy and some birthday cake for my 26th. Do I feel bad? HELL NO, as I know this weight will b lost I am just behind 2 days.
Fair enough, I should of just stuck to the diet and soldiered on however I thought FUCK IT, I have accomplished so much over the past year I needed to let my hair down on my birthday for the first time since I was 21 and celebrate. I have finally started my journey of self-love, I am attending university to become an Adult Nurse, I achieved a Merit/distinction profile whilst at college and I have finally rid myself from the bastard known as my sons father.... so fook yeah, one day out of the year I will enjoy it. I may not be here next year, tomorrow is never guaranteed but at least I can die knowing that I have enjoyed myself and have succeeded in many things I thought I could never do.
Am I still in the zone? Of course, not one bit of self-doubt about myself nor this diet will ever stop me reaching my goal and by mid April I will be at my goal of 10 stone. I fell off the band-wagon, of course, for me to imply otherwise would just be another lie to myself. I know that due to my 'treats' it is very likely that this time around I will face the 'wall' known most Cambridge Diet participants as the ' Day from hell where I will be tested in not devouring a whole cake shop and then some'.
So I am going to keep this entry short and sweet as my re-start weigh-in is tomorrow and may even vlog my entries alongside this blog. Updated results will be in tomorrows entry but in all honesty I am expecting no more than 1lbs weigh-loss...
Peace and Love Jae Jae x
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