Day 3

Today has been a fairly good day, I woke up early this morning with tons of energy, so much so I put on some Soca and began to dance, jiggle and shake for no apparent reason.

I do recall looking slightly different especially in my face , it looks THINNER, seeing as it has only been three days I just thought the lack of solid food had altered my view of myself but my discovery was confirmed by not just one but two people.

My neighbour noticed that my face was slimmer and even my Daddy complimented me on losing some of that double chin and if my dad noticed it then I know its happening.

I haven't really had any adverse side affects such as headaches or nausea that some people following this diet have suffered from. The only thing that I noticed was a god awful taste in my mouth in the morning, but I think that was due to me chain smoking like an old hag in the bingo hall before falling asleep. Another thing that came to my attention when I awoke was an email from my Consultant Nyree, upon seeing the contents of this email my morning hunger vanished and it it's place was the urge to vomit... She sent my picture of myself when I first weighed in.... It hit me that I have really let idiotic b******s get to me, fair enough I was going through some domestic violence but f*** me, that was no excuse to let myself go... Alas, that is the past and also negative, I will use this situation that almost ruined me, both mentally and physically AND I WILL TURN IT AROUND.

I decided to go shopping today and treat myself to a new dress, shoes and a bag for uni and vowed myself NEVER to look like those weigh in pics again, so for your entertainment and also means of instantaneous projectile vomiting... My weigh in pictures and original stats:

BMI: 39.7

WAIST: 47 INCHES

HIPS: 48 3/4 INCHES

BUST: 48 3/4 INCHES

ARMS: 13 1/2 INCHES

THIGHS: 25 INCHES

 



18.9 Stone





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WOWZA!



 

 I don't even know where to start with these pictures but one things for sure I KNOW where I am going. Just looking at these pictures have removed all hungry thoughts and cravings from my body. F*** man, I just want to punch myself, this beast you see before your eyes is just the hollow shell of what I once was and will be again. I look.... I don't even know how I look, I just know that this is no longer me.

 

 

Sometimes it makes me question my own sense of reality all these months I thought that top looked nice on me, everyone said it did. However this should be a lesson learned, never have such a lack of confidence that you smash all your mirrors in your house and rely on car doors to know what you look like, they lie and so do people!!



 

I have faith in this diet and I have faith in myself, I can do this. To motivate me even more than those pictures I have decided that I will treat myself for every stone that I lose, it's something I never did before, well actually that's a lie, I treated myself by getting happy and cheating by eating some calorific pile of s*** and hoped that it wouldn't affect me the next day.... which it did. this time I have decided to treat myself to things that will bring back my confidence and just make me feel special.

 

For losing a stone I felt that treating myself would be rather silly, the first stone I usually lose is mainly water weight with a few pounds of flab although the remaining stones..... WELL.. here are my mini treats:

* 2 stone loss - Visit to the hair salon and get a treatment for my hair, trim and some colour

* 3 stone loss - Complete my hallway  - which entails buying a few bits and bobs to finally finish decorating the hallway.

* 4 stone loss - Barbour Wellingtons -  I was going to buy a pair of Dubarry boots but I think I will wait until I am goal to go for the whole country woman look lol

* 5 stone loss - Treat myself to a facial, manicure, pedicure and small make up set for your eyebrows

* 6 stone loss - Buy some MAC makeup - I need to start taking care of how I look and with a 6 stone weight loss I will be looking as hot as ever.

* 7 stone loss - get my teeth whitened

*8 stone loss-  treat myself to some hair extensions I have always wanted and also a £500 shopping spree. It's not much for a shopping spree but seeing as my hair would cost £300, it's more than enough for me.

 

I was thinking of doing a youtube vlog, but maybe it's too late, I am almost one week in.....hmmmm, maybe I should.. Actually I will.. Once I have my 2nd weigh in I will doing a video. The more I put myself out there, the more motivated I feel to accomplish this weight loss, even if I can inspire ONE person to make the change then that's all I could ever ask for!!

 

But it's getting late and I still have tons of housework to do before I head off to bed.. Lets just hope I don't wake up tomorrow at the wall... Day three has been relatively okay... With the grace of the universe tomorrow will be FANTASTIC!!

 

Peace and Love

 

Just Jae-Jae