Thursday, 29 August 2013

The Start...

I always have trouble starting these things, so I'm just going to type and see what ends up on the screen. Now, I guess the best place to start is the beginning.

The Weight Issues

I can't say I've always had a weight issue, more a greed issue which resulted in a weight issue. It all started from when I was around 15, things happened and .... well I ate to make myself feel better about things and fill the void that had been ripped from inside myself. In time I ballooned up to 24 stone (336lbs) and remained that way until I was around 21.

Me at 24 stones.
                                                     


Then I found low carb diets, no food diets, stupid diets, die hard diets and eventually the weight started to shed away unveiling the new confident Jae-Jae. I eventually got down to around 16:9 when I found the Cambridge diet..... AND BOY, DID THAT S*** WORK.  I went from a fairly confident size 16 to a smoking hot superwoman who loved herself and everything about her 13 stone (182lbs) body and those size 12 jeans. Und zen...it went downhill from there..... I GOT PREGNANT... Why does it always happen like that, so many women have lost the weight, only to get dick happy and wind up with a bun in the oven.... Well I ballooned up to 17 stone (238) whilst I was pregnant but heck, I was eating kebabs, chips, chocolate and biscuits like I was Grizzly Mama bear storing food for the next 5 winters, so it's inevitable that the food had to go somewhere. Now I can't LIE and say the weight stuck, it didn't I was 14 stone in no time (breastfeeding helps), within 3-4 months,  however I didn't expect a double dosage of post-natal depression and anxiety attacks to take over my life.
Me at 13 stones

I didn't leave my house until my son was 1 and when i did leave eventually leave I was a new person, a broken person... an empty shell of what I once was...And that pretty much brings us up to today.. well yesterday I promised myself to never be that low again. However I am very positive with my future ventures to the land of weight-loss in hopes of finding the treasure island of self love, confidence and a 10 stone weight before I start  my body building, so here it begins....

I have decided to go back down the road that helped me loose a baby mammoth in weight. So without further ado my goals (and stats) are as followed:

On the 2nd September2013 I will partake in the Cambridge Diet for the next 22+  weeks to reach my goal of 10.9 Stones. I could go on forever about what my future goals would be but I often talk quite a fair bit without any further action, so rather than subject myself to daydreaming I shall just start off with the first goal of losing 8 stones.

My Stats

Start date: 2nd September 2013
Current weight:  18 stone and 9lbs (261 lbs)
BMI:    38.8

Height: 5"8 

End Date:  Sometime before or around April 2014
Goal Weight:  10.9 Stones (149 lbs)

Rather than view my Cambridge weight loss journey as one s***load of weight to lose I have decided to break it down into many mini goals. I often find this makes a difference when you have such a large amount to lose but in all honesty this can be applied to even the most minute weight loss goal.

There first goal is:

1) Get through day ONE
2) Get through the WALL ( this usual happens around day 3-4, everything looks edible and you feel like Hitler when he knew he lost the war)
3) Get through week ONE
4) Lose 1 stone - staying 100%
5) Lose 2 Stone -staying 100%
6) Lose 3 Stone - staying 100%
7) Lose 4 stone - staying 100%
8) Lose 5 stone - staying 100%
9) Lose 6 stone - staying 100%
10) Lose 7 stone - staying 100%
11) Lose 8 stone - staying 100%

I obviously have a few personal goal but I'll dwell on that tomorrow when I am starving and need to get my mind out of the fridge and let my emotions out rather that crave to eat the house.

Anyway, good luck to everyone else on their weight loss journeys

Love and Peace

Jae-Jae x x